I stopped trying to save the world…

Growing up, I thought I could save the world. As a little girl, I would see the hurt and suffering around me and I thought if there was one thing I could do, it would be to make people feel better. To make people happier in this world. I didn’t really know what it meant, I didn’t know how big the world really was, but I didn’t care. I wanted to save the world. . .

There was this quote, ‘If you’re lucky, the life you save will be your own.’ I didn’t know what that realllllyyyy Β meant when I first read it. I was thinking, we’re here to save the world. We’re all here to contribute. To do something. To make a difference. Right? Isn’t that what God wants us to do, save the world. And so I tried. I set out on this journey to save other people and I realized I had started losing myself. I wasn’t there anymore. I started to forget what it meant to actually be me. Because once you take on the world, not you have the worlds problems. Now you have the world on your shoulders and you have to be selfless to do such a thing. You have to forget about your own hopes and dreams because you just have to. You can’t run into a burning building just to save yourself. You can’t jump into the pool to save a drowning kid, just to keep swimming long enough to save yourself. It is just not smart and according to the world it isn’t something we should do. We should be forming our lives to help other people. ‘If you’re not making others lives better than you’re doing it wrong,’ or ‘Don’t do it for other people, do it for you.’ There is great truth in both statements.

But seriously, how can you try to jump in a pool to save someone else and you can’t swim to save yourself? How can you run into a burning building looking for someone else and you have no tools, training, or equipment. So not only did you not save someone else, but they got out because they saved themselves, and you went down with the burning building. There will be things you can do to help other people. I am not saying abandon the world. I am simply saying, that sometimes your house is on fire. And the only way to get out is to save yourself. [No, I am not saying leave your wife and kids in a burning building, or your siblings, or anyone else! This only a metaphor!!!]

In living your life, there must be a way for others to benefit. Not because that is your job, but we’re all here together. We share this world. We have no choice but to impact and influence others. So you making a different might not be direct, it could be through others who are inspired by your action, your goals, your ambition.

I started to realize that the world is huge. It is a mighty place. I started to realize that maybe my contribution to the world is to live my life. To live a life I love and to be happy. Not because someone else is watching, but because I want to. How can you change the world if you haven’t changed you.

People will be inspired by what you do, not what you say….

So, I’m living my life. I’m doing what makes me happy. I’m not getting in anyones way and I’m not neglecting the things that are within my control to help and have impact. I contribute my my nieces and nephews lives. I am apart of my family and friend groups. I am present. I am here. But I am doing what I want to do. I am not doing what is correct. Because what does that even mean. I am no longer trying to change the world. I’m trying to change my world. I want to be a good person. I want to grow. I want to help. I want to be here. . . Because I am here . . .

Some things are hard to explain. Life and death is difficult to talk about. Death more than anything. But how can you leave death out of the picture when you’re talking about life? It is not what you focus on, but you must not forget it. You must not forget that one day you will die. So today, while you are living. You should be free to do, all that you want and can do. So long as you do not hurt, harm, or discourage anyone else.

Live you life. Be happy. Be here.

Because you are . . .

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